So life has been insane to say the least and many of my friends may have noticed my absence from the courses lately.
I took a break to rest my shoulder and begin rethinking my game. I have ventured out lately and the break was definitely worth it.
Where to begin and what to say is what I sort in my head right now.
In the last month I have been let go from my job and accepted a verbal offer for another job. The problem is that until the verbal offer is written and signed by me I cannot start. So here I sit on unemployment until that happens. It is demeaning and very stressful on my current relationship. In the meantime the divorce papers arrived at my door and the terms were very disheartening. Amicable is only a word and the papers I was handed show no sign of anything amicable.
Add up the last month and this is the score- Nearly have lost my relationship, nearly have lost my home, lost my job, and being strung along on another job, my divorce papers look like I'll be bankrupt very soon, I am being limited to seeing my son two weekends a month, my bills are climbing, my health is slipping, but there are good things too. I have been offered verbally a job that nearly doubles my income, I have done some huge personal growth that has allowed me to see myself in a different and positive way, I have officially dropped 70 pounds since last year in a healthy way, and of course I hit an epiphany that has added another 50 feet to my drives and with more accuracy.
Let me look at these things. Although my relationship is valuable if it is not meant to be I will have the courage to walk away stronger. If I have to move I will change my scenery and move closer into the city with more access to things I enjoy. Although I have lost a job starting this new job will change my outlook heavily. The old job was really bad for my attitude and my outlook. Although I will pay a lot of money in the divorce it will help my ex educate herself and further her career meaning less money in the long run. Also paying child support is not bad as it is money for my son and he is the most important part of all of this. Even being limited in seeing my son I can treasure the time. He is becoming quite the little disc golfer and it is a nice way for the two of us to spend some time. Once I begin the new job I will be able to catch up and pay off a few bills. My health will improve as I have learned to eat well and when things start lining up for the better I will see the benefits.
The positives are just that. I have been reading like mad and absorbing information like a sponge. I have found many places in me where what I felt and how I acted were not meeting up. I have let go of a lot of my childhood. The weight I have lost has been so healthy and I feel the relief. I feel more alive.
Oh and after all of that you might think, where's the disc golf? Well here it is.
I have mentioned before how as I have relearned my game with my left hand I have had to take it slow and retrain my body. So while at the warehouse late at night I started bringing in my mid-range discs. I started very slowly and began working on a simple x-step. It has slowly come together on the course. I am throwing straight shots about 300 to 325 feet now with some accuracy. I have begun throwing my mid-range discs for shorter holes. It feels good with nearly no pain and my body feels great. I have made sure to be vigilant with myself and look for errors that might cause the same injuries that occurred in my right arm. It is all paying off with lower scores, more predictable shots, and more confidence.
Now you have it, my life in a nutshell right now. It is chugging forward and it is progressing. Thank you for your eyes, this is one place I feel I have an outlet right now and it is very helpful.