I have fully come to the realization that life isnt complete yet, Which is quite possibly the best thing for anyones mental health. Granted i have had dipression issues for years now. But I realized today that i want to take a trip, I am so sick of society visually. I want to go out and explore a foriegn country. Or some where in the states that is so visually beautiful that it just makes you stop for hours just to take it all in. Is this at all possible ? Can there be such a place ? I ant to be able to get away from everyone, I dont want to be a tourist i want to be a man on a mission. I want to be able to explore somewhere where its fully me and mother nature no one else. I want to be able to depend on myself only. I want to be able to go and set up camp on the edge of a lake and not see anyone for days. I want to be able to fully understand what this world has to offer for someone like me. Im obviously not the most fit however when i set my mind to something i can accomplish anything, Im in the mindset right now that next summer I am gonna make the attempt to take 2 weeks off of work and run away.
Im 26 years old, single, no kids and aside from bills i have absolutely no responsibilities. Why havent i done this sooner ? Why am i just now realizing i need to step back away from life to figure the path i need to travel ? Why do i feel the need to want to seclude myself from everyone else in the world ? I have never been a loner, I have friends on a daily basis asking/telling me i need to go hang out. But for what ? go to a bar to get drunk and hit on some chick ? No thanks!! Why is it i have no issue what so ever with being alone ? Granted i look for that one person in this world who is meant for me but what do i have to give them ? I have no stories of excitement, no bad decisions in my life, nothing !! I have barely lived. I have done some bad deeds but nothing that is totally criminal ! I have made poor decisions but who hasnt ? There is no such thing as an angel in this life and im just now seeing that. So what if i made poor decisions thats my choice. You havent ?
quote for the day
Robert M. Pirsig - “Even in the presence of others he was completely alone.”